Five of Wands – the struggle

I’ve had this blog post in the back of my mind for some time now. The insight and wisdom of what the five’s in tarot can teach us about ourselves and the healing they offer is one I encourage when we are feeling blocked or struggling. The five of wands speaks of conflict, struggle and competition but I want to simplify this card and at the same time add a little more depth.

The wands suit is connected to fire which is passion and energy. The number five is connected to the planet Mercury. So let’s put together what we know and have a look at how this relates in our lives.

I’ve been personally working with this card because I’m experiencing a lot of change with my work and for someone like me who has a lot of energy, having a clear direction of where I’m headed is so important.

And with like all change, we observe ourselves pushing to make things work because we want something to flow but as you can see from this card there is no flow if we are pushing to make things happen. We are in battle with air and fire, with thought and expression. Mercury is a planet of communication and is connected to the element of air and as you can see when we put these two energies together there is conflict.

The communication is off and yet we have the motivation, determination and energy to create (fire) but our minds are in battle and the way we’re communicating within ourselves is creating struggle and conflict.

If you are feeling like the five of wands, I would suggest looking at any expectations you are placing on yourself, your life or a loved one and explore in depth why you are pushing for this expectation. What is it that you want to happen? What is it that you emotionally NEED that you have to push to make things happen? We can see when we break it down how it comes from a place of fear and exploring this with the 5 of wands will offer you a greater understanding and give you the clarity you need to go with the flow.





The Wheel of Fortune

As Lammas approaches in the southern hemisphere, I felt it was appropriate to connect with the Wheel of Fortune in the tarot as we give thanks to Earth Mother for a fruitful harvest and reflect on what we have experienced and learnt throughout the year so far. It’s a time to reflect on change as the wheel turns, the days will become shorter as the Great  Mother prepares for the Crone aspect as we head towards the colder months.

Change. We all struggle with accepting change when it first appears. It is human nature to fear the unknown. It naturally brings up emotion and uncertainty because what we’re really preparing for is allowing something to come to an end, surrendering to  death, allowing it to transform who we are to birth something new.

I don’t believe it’s always the physical act of change that makes change so challenging but more the powerful emotions it provokes as we permit it to transform our lives. If we consider the wounds we carry around change along with the natural fear human beings have of the unknown which exacerbates what we feel it’s no surprise we resist change, yet as the saying goes, ‘ the only constant thing is change’.

“Energy flows it is not meant to stay still.”

I see change and chaotic change as two different things. There’s change where we may change our jobs or end a relationship, then there’s change where many changes happen at once or one after another and there is no rest from the emotional turmoil to gather our thoughts and feelings but to surrender to the whole process and give in to what we are feeling.

So let’s look at the Wheel of Fortune in the tarot system so we can separate from the physical change even if it’s for an hour and tend to what’s happening within and grasp at least some of what we are feeling in hope for some clarity to make the transition a little smoother.

The Wheel of Fortune represents the Great Mystery. The energy which creates and binds all life. It is the deeper meaning behind each experience and an opportunity to heal through change and heal the wounds we carry around change because let’s face it, most people want to be in control though it is an illusion to think we are which many hang onto and an illusion which creates so much discomfort and turmoil.

When we hang onto a thought, feeling, a belief system, an expectation, without allowing room for change, we are not only setting ourselves up for a whole lot of discomfort but blocking ourselves to live our life to its full potential. It is what we think should happen and not accepting what is in front of us that we need to surrender to, accept and tend to. It takes trust and belief in self knowing however and wherever this journey takes us we have the strength, clarity and willingness to understand and grow through the experience and steer it with enough room to accept that there will be many detours and curves along the way.  It’s learning to trust in the unknown and see it for what it is – the great mystery, the divine, a surrender to spirit, a surrender to your authentic self.

Reflection and Journalling on the Wheel of Fortune

Some of the most simplest but most profound questions can make a whole lot of difference to our life direction when journalling on the Wheel of Fortune.  The questions to journal and reflect on while gazing into the card image and journalling on each one are:

How does change make you feel? .. and why?

When you consider surrendering to a situation you did not expect or have no control of,  what emotions come to the surface? Which emotion is the most dominate one and why?   Once you have the answer to this question, take it a little deeper and connect it to an experience which made you feel this way in childhood then journal on this experience. Remember to be aware of this in the future knowing when unexpected change or when you feel you’re not in control of a situation, these feelings will be triggered. This is one of the most important lessons to grasp when exploring your inner world to be aware of what triggers powerful wounding, grasping a solid understanding around it and allowing yourself to feel these feelings without placing belief into what you feel but allowing it to move through you.

Do you trust what you intuitively feel? .. and if not why not? What emotional blocks are you aware of that you need to work through so you can trust your intuition? When did you first realise you don’t trust your intuition? Write about the experience. 

These questions will help you begin healing around change and help you connect with the Wheel of Fortune on a deeper level giving you more clarity to read the card when it appears in a spread.

Wheel of Fortune from The Mary El Tarot.
Wheel of Fortune from The Mary El Tarot.






Business or Personal Journalling with the Tarot

I’m currently on holidays and placed myself on an artist retreat because I’m just feeling a lot of new energy and creations wanting to come through and part of this is a hell of a lot of writing. We can all relate when when we want to get the creative juices flowing or want to shift some emotions we’ve been caught on and what has always helped me is journalling or painting with the tarot.

Yes painting! There are times when I’m sitting at the easel and I just feel stuck something is wanting to come through and I can feel it strongly but something emotional is also wanting my presence and with two very intense energies you can just imagine it’s about now I want to fucken scream! 😀

What always helps is pulling out a tarot deck that evokes a lot of emotion and for me two decks always cuts through it, my beloved Mary El Tarot and the Tarot of the Vampyres.

Tarot of the Vampyres

I’m a lover of darker themed decks to me they speak the truth of whats actually happening within the seer/seeker and in any situation questioned. There’s no fluff and I feel nothing is missed it gets to the point which is what I want. So if I’m feeling blocked when I paint one of these decks will make a show and I will shuffle and pull a few cards out till I can really feel my emotions peaking and then I bring that to the canvas occasionally glancing at the spread to keep things moving. It always works.

Journalling whether it’s personal or business, same deal. Don’t get caught on asking the cards anything just shuffle and pull cards out. We don’t want to go into interpretation when we are already feeling a lot just keep pulling cards and allow yourself to get lost in the images and let them speak to you. Have them in front of you while you write. Just write don’t judge or question it just allow whatever wants to come through you. I do this both personally and for business. Yep 😀 I use the tarot to create business ideas always and I just keep writing and the most amazing creations come through whether its pen or paint.

The Mary El Tarot

It’s here I want to say that if you don’t own a darker themed deck it really is worth the investment emotionally and spiritually to purchase one that speaks to you. You certainly can do this exercise with a lighter themed deck but I truly feel there’s something about the darker decks that take you in deep and that’s what we ultimately want is to deepen our relationship with self, this is what the journey’s all about.

If you give this a go let me know I would be interested to hear about your experience. xxxx


Owl Medicine and The Moon Card

Just one of the many beautiful things having a strong relationship with the Earth gifts you, is receiving medicine and sharing it with anyone that is willing to listen.

Connecting outside yesterday,  I received a vision of an Owl and how we are to connect with Owl medicine to support us with the next wave of energy our planet will be experiencing. When She moves we move with Her. To help connect with Owl Medicine we can use the energy of The Moon card.

Owl Medicine is connected to intuitive and psychic ability it supports us to trust ourselves. Owl teaches us to see within our own darkness and to see through the darkness of others to not only protect ourselves when we need protecting but through exploring our own fear and emotion we receive insight and retrieve the light from the darkness and have a deeper understanding of fears and heavier emotions.

Owl also shows us where we are deceiving ourselves again taking us deep to explore the emotions that are distorting our clarity. The Owl and Moon card go hand in hand. Through the exploration of our shadow self we retrieve wisdom and courage to face our fears allowing for our creative energy to flow through connecting to a clearer channel with our divine self.

If this calls to you, use The Moon card to explore any fears that have surfaced at this time. Begin with emotions that are heavy or uncomfortable and begin journalling from there having The Moon card to gaze upon while you write. This meditative exercise, you will be surprise how deep it will take you.



Soul Dive with the Four of Cups

Oh to be back in tarot land! With my own practice I haven’t left, I never leave, tarot is part of my spiritual practice and always will be. I’ve had to nurture other business areas of my life before I went deep again and throughout the time I’ve explored new decks and really working with some of the images in certain decks while I nurtured business and took another deep soul dive.

Through this soul dive more layers peeled away and a renewed sense of vulnerability has appeared which is just so freeing and lovely and I want to share with you which cards I’ve been working with through this time. After exploring and connecting with unique decks I have a habit of going back to traditional decks because I find that it deepens my connection to the tarot system. After exploring and connecting with unique artwork, colours, symbolism and meanings going back to the traditional decks for me deepens the connection to the traditional decks which I can almost physically feel the ‘drop’ in my body and the deepening connection with my own spirit. All I can say after 6 months of exploring and connecting with non traditional decks pick up the Tarot of Marseille, Visconti Sforza, Ancient Italian Tarot or the Rider Waite- Smith tarot and tell me the difference in your tarot study I’ll be interested to hear your experience.

There’s been a few decks I’ve been connecting with at this time. The first is the Ancestral Path Tarot which for me as soon as I turn over the cards I see words of insight. I’ve also been loving the Morgan-Greer tarot which to be honest has been a huge surprise because this deck I’ve seen so many times over the years and just felt ‘nup’ but through this soul dive I’ve been so drawn to bold colours and I have to say its now one of my favourite decks.


Ancestral Path Tarot


Morgan Greer Tarot


The card I really worked with through this time is the 4 of Cups and The Empress. Two which was relevant both intuitively chosen and man o man did the 4 of Cups speak to me. It’s a card I’m not really bothered by usually but I was just so deep and caught with decision making which is very unlike me, I was also ready to throw what I love to do in which is REALLY unlike me but even though I knew logically what I had to do my emotional body was screaming ‘fuck off I’m no good’ yes so you get how deep I went 😀

I was stuck so I used the four of cups from the Morgan Greer deck and journalled for one week straight which helped me break the heavy negative self belief feelings. This is what I got this time around working with the 4 of Cups is yes it’s all there in front of you and yes a decision needs to be made but almost always we need to go deep if we’re feeling caught. The thing is I’m rarely caught with my emotions I have no problem going deep, I don’t fear what I feel no matter how messy but if we are stuck man we have to go deep and do the work especially when you know you are The Empress, we all are, but there are times we have to move through deep conditioned shitty feelings to really know that on a deeper level so we can create on a higher level.

The Empress honestly just moved me to tears the whole time 😀 seriously because I wasn’t feeling her or good enough so she helped me release. Where would we be without our beloved tarot?! Anyway lovelies I’m sorry for the lack of presence on this blog there will be times where the deep inner work needs to be done but I will always return and look forward to sharing more in the near future. xxxx

Responding to the Cards: Intuitive and Emotional Responses

I love getting into the heavy with this topic with passionate beginner and intermediate tarot readers. It’s exciting to watch someone connect and strengthen the relationship with self. It’s precious and beautiful. Although this is a topic widely discussed in depth and there’s a real need for it because distinguishing what is an emotional or intuitive response is important as a reader.

First I have to mention that reading for yourself will bring up emotion whether you’re a beginner or an advanced reader when you’re enquiring about an experience or situation that is close to the heart emotion will be stirred thats a completely normal response. I have to say if you’re feeling emotional I wouldn’t recommend pulling out the tarot because as we know the tarot is a soul mirror and some images will provoke more emotion and if you’re already feeling vulnerable and overwhelmed please be gentle and put the cards away.

Self nurture and care comes first. Journalling how you feel, a gentle creative space, good food, warm blankets, hot tea and a good movie is whats needed as we release some of the heavier and raw feelings then slowly when it feels right the cards can come out and speak.

I would actually recommend first when we are healing but still seeking clarity is to pull out an oracle deck that resonates with you. One thats clear and nurturing. A quick four card spread to support you to receive clarity on the situation can slowly begin shifting our perspective which opens the door for a little more healing.


The Difference between Intuitive & Emotional Responses

This one can be a little tricky and one I worked hard on because my intuition was so strong I received not only feelings but visions and I actually couldn’t tell what was a vision or imagination  but when we practice every day we slowly see and feel the difference.

Feelings: strong emotional responses can also be intuitive and that is something we need to work on personally. You can be guided through this by someone experienced in this area but no one can teach you that only you can be aware of it by listening to yourself, really listening every day. The more we practice the clearer it becomes.

For example: meeting someone for the first time but you feel a little uneasy. That’s not say they’re a bad person it could be they are carrying a little more emotion than usual, they could be stressed, they could be stuck in a conditioned emotional pattern and the uncomfortable feeling you’re feeling is an intuitive response that you may not get on with one another down the track but sometimes we push away that intuitive response because superficially ‘things look good’…. noticed I said ‘look good’.

Intuition is the unheard language but if we choose to make it our primary language and really pay attention to what we feel it becomes our first line of communication and cuts through the illusion of the superficial of ‘things looking good’ really it cuts through the bullshit and we see the truth of how things really are.

When our intuitive responses become emotional its our authentic self really trying to get our attention that ‘something isn’t right’ and you’re not paying attention and the more you ignore this feeling it grows and you become more emotional and reactive till something gives.


Very clearly intuition is a knowing. There’s no doubt when we receive something ‘we just know’. It comes from a sacred place, our higher consciousness. Be prepared to feel emotional when we learn to read the cards this is just our emotional patterns that we are slowly becoming aware of and pulling it off from our all seeing eye. If we don’t raise awareness around our emotional body it becomes blocked and doesn’t flow and we view the world through veils of feelings so we aren’t seeing with clear eyes.

I wish I could share more in this post but it is a very sensitive and complex subject one that needs to be shared in person and yes I will be offering this in the future but for now to really get to know the difference is honestly journal what you feel from reading the cards. Pay attention to what you feeling with people and situations and journal that too because when you begin to log this down then you can see for yourself a pattern forming with what is intuition and what makes you emotional and why. Very powerful and one that we need to master on this journey… xxx




It’s Ok Not to Reverse

Card reversals, to reverse or not to reverse?

Let me begin by saying we all read tarot in our own way. I have heard of teachers who would get angry with their students if they read the cards differently to how they were taught. Reading tarot is a personal thing in my opinion there’s no right or wrong only what feels right for the seeker/seer like everything in life we have to trust our own feeling over the opinions of others. Myself as a teacher the only thing I would encourage is the study of the traditional symbols of the major and minor arcana as there is so much knowledge in knowing about the traditional symbols after learning this  the way you choose to read is your own. My 15 year old daughter vaguely knows the meanings of the cards but she reads with such accuracy because she goes with her feeling and that is what needs to be encouraged; find your own way.

I teach reversals as I feel there’s much knowledge and wisdom to receive knowing about reading the cards upside down but personally when I read for clients or myself I don’t use reversals because it doesn’t feel right for me. It’s just something that doesn’t work for me it never has although I know the insight behind reversals and when I read if what I receive is similar feeling to a reversal I would naturally share that information. Why I bring this up is some teachers are so forceful with how the tarot is read I don’t believe it should be like that in any form of teaching it’s our job to guide you through the knowledge and also guide you to work with your intuition to find your own way.

I also would like to add the tarot carries light and shadow in the upright position for each card even though some cards may be positive such as The Sun card but it also depends on the reading and where it lies in the spread. The most important thing about learning anything is you not only love it 😀 if you’re a tarot nerd like myself but you also love it especially through times of frustration. Frustration is part of learning and growth. Take the pressure off yourself if you don’t read in the traditional way don’t worry! if anything celebrate that you do read differently because it means you are connecting to a deeper part of you 🙂 xxx


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Revelations Tarot by Zach Wong  The Revelations tarot is a beautiful deck created with reversed images in the cards.
Revelations Tarot by Zach Wong
The Revelations tarot is a beautiful deck created with reversed images in the cards.