Five of Wands – the struggle

I’ve had this blog post in the back of my mind for some time now. The insight and wisdom of what the five’s in tarot can teach us about ourselves and the healing they offer is one I encourage when we are feeling blocked or struggling. The five of wands speaks of conflict, struggle and competition but I want to simplify this card and at the same time add a little more depth.

The wands suit is connected to fire which is passion and energy. The number five is connected to the planet Mercury. So let’s put together what we know and have a look at how this relates in our lives.

I’ve been personally working with this card because I’m experiencing a lot of change with my work and for someone like me who has a lot of energy, having a clear direction of where I’m headed is so important.

And with like all change, we observe ourselves pushing to make things work because we want something to flow but as you can see from this card there is no flow if we are pushing to make things happen. We are in battle with air and fire, with thought and expression. Mercury is a planet of communication and is connected to the element of air and as you can see when we put these two energies together there is conflict.

The communication is off and yet we have the motivation, determination and energy to create (fire) but our minds are in battle and the way we’re communicating within ourselves is creating struggle and conflict.

If you are feeling like the five of wands, I would suggest looking at any expectations you are placing on yourself, your life or a loved one and explore in depth why you are pushing for this expectation. What is it that you want to happen? What is it that you emotionally NEED that you have to push to make things happen? We can see when we break it down how it comes from a place of fear and exploring this with the 5 of wands will offer you a greater understanding and give you the clarity you need to go with the flow.





Soul Dive with the Four of Cups

Oh to be back in tarot land! With my own practice I haven’t left, I never leave, tarot is part of my spiritual practice and always will be. I’ve had to nurture other business areas of my life before I went deep again and throughout the time I’ve explored new decks and really working with some of the images in certain decks while I nurtured business and took another deep soul dive.

Through this soul dive more layers peeled away and a renewed sense of vulnerability has appeared which is just so freeing and lovely and I want to share with you which cards I’ve been working with through this time. After exploring and connecting with unique decks I have a habit of going back to traditional decks because I find that it deepens my connection to the tarot system. After exploring and connecting with unique artwork, colours, symbolism and meanings going back to the traditional decks for me deepens the connection to the traditional decks which I can almost physically feel the ‘drop’ in my body and the deepening connection with my own spirit. All I can say after 6 months of exploring and connecting with non traditional decks pick up the Tarot of Marseille, Visconti Sforza, Ancient Italian Tarot or the Rider Waite- Smith tarot and tell me the difference in your tarot study I’ll be interested to hear your experience.

There’s been a few decks I’ve been connecting with at this time. The first is the Ancestral Path Tarot which for me as soon as I turn over the cards I see words of insight. I’ve also been loving the Morgan-Greer tarot which to be honest has been a huge surprise because this deck I’ve seen so many times over the years and just felt ‘nup’ but through this soul dive I’ve been so drawn to bold colours and I have to say its now one of my favourite decks.


Ancestral Path Tarot


Morgan Greer Tarot


The card I really worked with through this time is the 4 of Cups and The Empress. Two which was relevant both intuitively chosen and man o man did the 4 of Cups speak to me. It’s a card I’m not really bothered by usually but I was just so deep and caught with decision making which is very unlike me, I was also ready to throw what I love to do in which is REALLY unlike me but even though I knew logically what I had to do my emotional body was screaming ‘fuck off I’m no good’ yes so you get how deep I went πŸ˜€

I was stuck so I used the four of cups from the Morgan Greer deck and journalled for one week straight which helped me break the heavy negative self belief feelings. This is what I got this time around working with the 4 of Cups is yes it’s all there in front of you and yes a decision needs to be made but almost always we need to go deep if we’re feeling caught. The thing is I’m rarely caught with my emotions I have no problem going deep, I don’t fear what I feel no matter how messy but if we are stuck man we have to go deep and do the work especially when you know you are The Empress, we all are, but there are times we have to move through deep conditioned shitty feelings to really know that on a deeper level so we can create on a higher level.

The Empress honestly just moved me to tears the whole time πŸ˜€ seriously because I wasn’t feeling her or good enough so she helped me release. Where would we be without our beloved tarot?! Anyway lovelies I’m sorry for the lack of presence on this blog there will be times where the deep inner work needs to be done but I will always return and look forward to sharing more in the near future. xxxx

Renewed Stability with the 8 of Cups

We all have our favourite cards in tarot one of mine is the 8 of Cups.
The image in most decks gives me a sense of peace and a sense of relief when it shows in my own personal readings.
In most decks it usually holds a similar feeling to the Hermit, a time of listening, of knowing, and retreat.
The 8 of Cups usually means letting go of a stable situation.
We have outgrown the situation and it’s time to let go and leave.
Though in most decks the 8 of Cups holds a feeling of going within and I also see this as an honouring of the grieving process of letting go. Β It’s a beautiful reminder to honour the change itself. Too often we don’t allow our inner world to catch up to the physical process and we find ourselves emotionally overwhelmed a few weeks after.


Inner explorations and deepening our understanding of the 8 of Cups can clearly begin with these questions:


* What emotions surface when you think about letting go of a person or a situation that you feel connected to?
Which two emotions are most dominantly felt and why?
Go deeper with this journal as much as you can really feel, listen and observe the conditioned pattern that’s triggered.

* How do you feel living your true potential? What feelings does this question trigger both positive and negative?
This may sound like a strange question but you’ll be surprised how many people fear their power and undervalue their self worth.

* What do you consider a stable life and why? Does your stability impinge on your spiritual and emotional freedom? And if so how and what can you change about this?


So you see the 8 of Cups isn’t very scary πŸ™‚ though some people may consider it so it actually supports you to become more stable within yourself and to look within for stability and emotionally detach from outcomes and expectations supporting us to have greater freedom within.



It’s Ok Not to Reverse

Card reversals, to reverse or not to reverse?

Let me begin by saying we all read tarot in our own way. I have heard of teachers who would get angry with their students if they read the cards differently to how they were taught. Reading tarot is a personal thing in my opinion there’s no right or wrong only what feels right for the seeker/seer like everything in life we have to trust our own feeling over the opinions of others. Myself as a teacher the only thing I would encourage is the study of the traditional symbols of the major and minor arcana as there is so much knowledge in knowing about the traditional symbols after learning this Β the way you choose to read is your own. My 15 year old daughter vaguely knows the meanings of the cards but she reads with such accuracy because she goes with her feeling and that is what needs to be encouraged; find your own way.

I teach reversals as I feel there’s much knowledge and wisdom to receive knowing about reading the cards upside down but personally when I read for clients or myself I don’t use reversals because it doesn’t feel right for me. It’s just something that doesn’t work for me it never has although I know the insight behind reversals and when I read if what I receive is similar feeling to a reversal I would naturally share that information. Why I bring this up is some teachers are so forceful with how the tarot is read I don’t believe it should be like that in any form of teaching it’s our job to guide you through the knowledge and also guide you to work with your intuition to find your own way.

I also would like to add the tarot carries light and shadow in the upright position for each card even though some cards may be positive such as The Sun card but it also depends on the reading and where it lies in the spread. The most important thing about learning anything is you not only love it πŸ˜€ if you’re a tarot nerd like myself but you also love it especially through times of frustration. Frustration is part of learning and growth. Take the pressure off yourself if you don’t read in the traditional way don’t worry! if anything celebrate that you do read differently because it means you are connecting to a deeper part of you πŸ™‚ xxx


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Revelations Tarot by Zach Wong  The Revelations tarot is a beautiful deck created with reversed images in the cards.
Revelations Tarot by Zach Wong
The Revelations tarot is a beautiful deck created with reversed images in the cards.

Solitude with The HermitΒ 

The Hermit is one of the most loved cards for me in the deck.Β 

It speaks strongly to me when it’s shown in a spread as I know I have to go within and be my own teacher and not be distracted by the outside world so I can connect with the my intuitive self and listen to what conditioned responses and emotions I need to let go of so I can allow my authentic self to take charge and slowly manifest the new changes and opportunities in my world.
When I feel overwhelmed at times and I know I need to stop everything to listen to my inner world I draw out The Hermit card from the deck, shuffle the cards and pull another 3 cards which can give me insight to what it is I need to work on and why I feel fearful to stop what I’m doing.
We’ve all been there yeah where we get caught in our fears and feel we have to keep going because otherwise we will ‘fall behind’ but in actual fact we’re just running on fear and emotion that is needing our presence and to give it the attention it needs we need to stop and slow everything right down.
The Hermit can also symbolise a teacher coming into our life and although yes there are times we need to connect with someone that can guide us through situations and possibilities in our life ultimately I believe The Hermit is here to show us that we are our own teacher.
If we choose seek solitude and take time to get to know our true self we will see all the answers we are seeking Β are already there inside of us but it takes time to deepen the relationship with Self but it’s also the most important relationship to have.
Many people don’t see The Hermit as a sign of deep change because usually always after a time of solitude life transforms.
Firstly it may be a little chaotic when change presents itself but the change is necessary as we cannot live how we once did and after a time of inward reflection we must always follow what we feel and create the changes in our outer world.
For someone that is wanting to take charge of their life or take charge in their current situation I encourage you to work with The Hermit.
Read up and study the meaning. Upright and reversed then go deeper and explore how this card feels to you.
How does the image feel to you?
What feelings surface with the thought of being self reliant and becoming your own teacher?
How do you feel about life transforming change? What fears arise? What are you afraid of changing and why?
Go deep. Allow your intuition, your inner light to guide you through the darkness.
Be your own teacher. Xxx
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Gather the Cards


So you’ve gathered the cards, love them dearly and yes the books have arrived and yes love laying out spreads but still you can’t really feel them speaking to you yet. Totally normal don’t panic it is flowing more than you know. It flows through subtly an energy begins to form between you and the cards even if it is frustration, uncertainty and sometimes even anger from being so frustrated but its forming and the relationship between you and the cards are speaking, you’re speaking through how you feel when you have them around you or in your hands whatever you’re feeling allow yourself to feel it. Don’t push it away, don’t distract it, don’t stop the connection between you and tarot system just allow it to be like any relationship that is intimate you WILL feel which is completely normal regardless of what society would like us to believe… keep going.

Within those moments of frustration journal it but before you do shuffle the cards and ask the question, ‘what’s blocking me from moving forward with my study with the tarot? I would go as far as saying just shuffle the major arcana cards and choose one and work with this card to reveal the fear and feelings behind the frustration.

You will see it actually isn’t the cards but our conditioned fear of deepening our relationship with ourself and with others. We are all so conditioned not to feel those scary emotions that are uncomfortable, taught to silence them, distract them and even be ashamed of them but we ALL feel them we’re human and our humanity is beautiful its definitely nothing to be ashamed of. We’re taught to distract our shadow selves (our heavier darker emotions) because it’s within the shadow, within the darkness is where light is born. Within the darkness is where you will find yourself… so be gentle and keep journalling the darker emotions, keep journalling through those times you feel numb or you feel nothing is moving it is moving you’re just feeling whats been locked away for some time.

The most important thing is to be gentle there’s no rush and you will be so pleasantly surprised what will be uncovered through this magical journey. So gather the cards it’s ok to feel. xxx


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The Devil card from the Mythic Tarot

Studying the Tarot: Where to Begin


I have met so many people and have engaged with so many clients wanting to study the tarot but have no idea where to begin. Getting to know 78 cards intimately sounds pretty daunting and a huge puzzle to work through. Thats what it feels like as a beginner because we’ve all been there but it was my passion for the cards that pushed me to research, to study and speak to others that were just as passionate as myself to explore further.

So how can 78 cards reveal the depths of me let alone be used for a divinatory tool? And where do I start? These are the three main questions I asked myself when I begun. What pulled me to the cards was the tool itself. It felt like an old remembering of using cards to tell the future and no we don’t need to use the cards just for this but that was my reason because I was born with the natural gift to see but I needed to decipher what was vision and what was my imagination, what was thought and what was an intuitive receiving and also what was emotion and whatΒ was an intuitive feeling. That sounds like a lot but I will eventually break it all down so it doesn’t sound like a huge task and more importantly enjoying the journey because it really is so enjoyable. It’s fascinating, surprising, confronting to the many doorways the tarot system can open for our own spiritual and healing journey.


So where to begin?

Really simply, first you will need to find a deck that you’re drawn to one where it engages your intuition, where it stirs feelings good or bad it doesn’t matter as long as it makes you feel and you enjoy looking at the images because you need to develop a personal relationship with the cards and like any relationship that is going to help you grow it needs to stir feeling and the images need to grab your attention where you enjoy looking at them.

I always advise beginning with a traditional deck or a deck that doesn’t steer too far away from the traditional deck. I highly recommend this because this is the foundation of the tarot and we need to understand the symbols and the traditional symbols itself which will unlock our subconscious where a wealth of knowledge and wisdom live but also the feelings and emotions we need to resolve. Resolving deep painful feelings will allow a clearer channel for our intuition and our authentic self to flow in allowing us to read the cards intuitively.

You will also need a journal because this is a healing journey ultimately and yes a lot to learn and jotting things down to remember what different symbols mean but also how they make you feel and any emotional feelings that may surface and feelings will surface both good and bad. I honesty believe that a lot of the time people are put off by the tarot Β because it does bring up a lot of feelings which make people feel uncomfortable and this is a practice to get to know you and for you to have a deep and loving relationship with self and the Universe.


Creating Sacred Space to Study

Creating space to connect on a deeper level is essential. It truly is. My whole house is designed so as soon as I walk in the door I drop into that relaxed space where I can hear my authentic self speak. When we’re relaxed we can receive clearer messages from our intuitive self but more importantly we need to feel relaxed for our own well being too.

Incense, candles, lamps, comfortable cushions and chairs, crystals, flowers, pictures which make us feel good and connect us to a higher and deeper knowing, whatever you choose to use to connect to your sacred self do that. Place your tarot cards in a place where you know you will pick them up regularly during the day and night and this isn’t to always be in serious study space but just to relax and enjoy looking at the card images and developing a relationship with them. In your relaxed state allow them to speak to you, be aware of how each card speaks to you and how those feelings change from time to time. Get to know the symbols intimately, notice how the colours that are used in the cards make you feel and notice the feeling you sink into when you begin exploring the cards. Notice that quiet, calm and mysterious space and just be present there… it’s a beautiful space to be in and it’s this space where we open the deeper connection to nothingness to allow our intuition to speak.


Here’s a list of some traditional decks and some not so traditional decks to begin with which don’t steer to far from the traditional symbols:

Visconti Sforza Tarrochi Tarot
Tarot of Marcella
Secret Tarot
Rider Waite Smith Tarot
Universal Rider Waite Tarot deck
Anna K Tarot
Ancient Italian Tarot
Arthurian Tarot

Two books I recommend beginning your study with. I love these two books they live on my bedside table:

Seventy Eight Degrees of Wisdom by Rachel Pollack ~ I highly recommend any book written by Rachel Pollack. Her books are clear and knowledgable and fantastic to learn from.

Holistic Tarot by Benebell Wen ~ an absolute wealth of information again clear and full of so much knowledge.

Mary K. Greer is another great author of tarot books.


So I leave you with this little bit to get started with and I’ll see you all in the next post… and enjoy!! This is such an awesome journey and the best thing it is never ending! You’ll see… πŸ™‚ xxx



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